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It has been a tough couple of weeks. So, I haven't been that up-to-date on the blog. There has been a lot going on at school. Then there is Christmas. It has been hard to go to parties and to write Christmas cards with the message - Still no baby from China. When people ask? Can't say. It will be worth the wait they say. I have been waiting 12 long years. First, what ever you do - don't have children you could risk an unborn child's life and your life. So getting over that grief took years. So then when we were ready to think about adoption. Guess what? You are in kidney failure. You need a kidney transplant. So I got my kidney transplant. They said you will be able to have children but wait a year. So I waited a year. Started trying - stopping having periods. Guess what you are in Menopause? OK, let's try the adoption thing. Let's go with China. They are reliable, predicable and list of great attributes went on and on. So we put our name in. Guess what China slowed down to a snail's pace. I may have to wait almost another year. All I want to do is cry and cry. I don't think I can take it much more. I am trying to be strong but I think this is even harder than the year I had kidney failure and it took every ounce of strength to put one foot in front of the other every day. There is my rant for the day. Sorry but had to get that off my chest. If I write any more I might offend some people.